hmpf.

i think irony of the last post pretty much sums me up. good intentions... terrible follow though. its been that way my entire life. so now. here i am. three years later. my first son is 3 and a bit, and i have a second son who is almost 6 months. motherhood has been a journey, a challenge. one that i often feel that i am failing miserably, but somehow come out the other side relatively unscathed and usually having learned something. eeek. yeah. i really shouldn't be up. i don't even fully understand how i got back here. i was looking at kristian's blog. he's gone for the weekend. i was watching hulu... and yes, if you must know, i was watching grey's anatomy. however, i do feel that i redeemed myself by following that up with documentary trailers, like white stripes: under great white northern lights... which i then proceeded to post on facebook. see! no hope. i'm doomed. yeah, so. i'm tired but wasn't quite feeling the go to bed vibe. i clicked on the bookmark in the bookmark bar which was labeled Blog. i never do this. never. but i did. and i began to comment on a few posts. this little jaunt led me to someone else's blog, which i also commented on. only this time, i logged in. i still can't figure out how i remembered the password. anyhow. here i am.